A day like this
Awkward Romance.
His lips move gently against my neck, and I shiver slightly.
“You smell good. Like… fruit or something…” He murmurs into my collar bone.
“Thanks.” I breathe.
He touches the bare skin above my belt with his hand and my body reacts pulling him closer. My hands wander over the surface of his back, like little settlers claiming land in America.
He lightly kisses my shoulder and murmurs something intelligible into his pillow. He says it with such surrender and honesty and heartfelt sincerity. I think for a moment, then all at once I realize what was said.
“I love you.”
I won.
I love you.
see my problem?
Yeah I wasn’t gonna say anything about it, but yeah. That thing we did today. Pretty intense feels. Doesn’t change the fact that I hate 95% of you, but the 5% I do care about— I care about you big.
I thought I would only get 3 or 4, but I got so much more than that. And it’s not really about the number, Some of the things people said to me were so kind, and heartfelt. and I could see emotion in their eyes. and some people i couldn’t even look in their eyes because I knew I would get choked up or some stupid crap like that.
for some people my hands were shaking as I tied them around their wrists, and I could barely get words out because there was so much I could say but nothing would come out right… anyway. I don’t know. I guess being with people for 4 years you really get to know them, and grow attached.
Most people, I could deal with not seeing every day, but a few people, it’s gonna be rough I guess.
My mom is like: You need to start doing your homework and taking responsibility and paying for everything and working hard at everything you do and not taking the easy way out of things.
And I’m like mom, have you seen me? I go hard mom. I’m hardcore. I’m a THUG. thugs don’t have responsibilities!
Mom just doesnt understand the thug liyfe i live!
trying to take a picture and realizing it’s recording. Goofing off ensues.
I had a good day yesterday.
I love this jacket, got it at a thrift store, and I always get so many compliments on it. Though people always say I look like I stepped out of an 90’s music video or I jumped a hipster for their windbreaker. Cool.
